Inevitable Frightening Swift Changes

Seven and a half months have passed since the last day we were a sabians. Everyone is in their own path now, be it a golden one or a vague one. Now you can see clearly, distinguish vividly how life differs from every individual. Its is either you board an airplane or you travel by car, clad with thick sweater or set yourself free without a piece of clothes, devouring food with uncanny names and olive oil is certainly the main ingredient used or gorging three heavy meals and three times tidbits a day without control, speaking English to people from all walks of life or communicating in BM rojak-ed with Terengganu, Kedah and Kelantan dialek, staying in the concrete jungle with ubiquitous towering shopping complex or living in a small piece of land with hardly a cinema available.

When a city girl returns from her two months long studies in Perlis, far far away from her beloved family, friends that can be jiwang-ed all the time, entertainment rich shopping complex and idiotic box but now a precious television, ireacts as if she has been electrocuted by merely looking at the amount of informations and updates she obtained from her flat-screened computer.

Yea, i hate to admit, but i feel kind of left out for being in matrix while all my friends are in their peak moment of happiness and fear free despite pressure from examinations. At least to get a slice of entertainment is so easy for them compared to me, mentally and physically locked in a four walls college.

Should i feel grateful or am i whining too much due to the comfortable and city life i use to have? Nevertheless, everyone is different. Maybe i am unique with my own way. Why compare as this might has been the best for me?

Frankly speaking, life in matriculation is not what i had expected-exciting and exhilarating most of the time. Maybe it is because of there is too few chinese, not even 100. Thank God there is third intake students. Really hope i can find a good friend that listen to blasting songs, crap a lot and of cause be there for me when i need a pillar of support. I don't wish that person can be almost like my secondary besties, but at least someone that can make me feel genuinely comfortable to share everything with.

Ok, lets transform to a happier mode. Karnival Kokurikulum Matrikukasi (KAKOM) 2010 has just ended fantastically on 28 July 2010, leaving the best piece of memory in my mind. I really enjoy the ambience of Johor Matriculation College though the landscape is almost tantamount to my college. However, the garden ubiquitous, much spacious and well-equipped college with stadium and squash court truly enticed my heart and bailing a temptation to migrate from KMP to KMJ. Less Claustrophobic i can feel, even the toilet is more comfortable than KMP toilet as we don't have to share with tremendous amount of malicious mosquitoes and orange black stripes charlie, all thanks to the emerald paddy fields.

To be apart of KAKOM participant truly gave me an eye opening experience and breath of freedom, far far away from boredom as we were very pampered and entertained there. Free T-shirts, jersey, sports shoe, cap, six meals a day, two dozens of mineral water, and oranges, bananas and breads, each 16 units. Imagine the amount of money government has invested to make this sports carnival a success. The spirit of sports is protruded clearly by each of the colleges. Cheers and shouts of slogans can be heard everywhere.

here are some pics

kawad girls cladded in blue jersey depicting KMP

Johor Matrik can fit a stadium with track! how big is that

the room in KMJ

and our fight for gold medal begins here-this is where we compete

but before that lots of preparation had been done. besides daily training, shoe polishing is really crucial

Phua Chu Kang yellow black boot ( this is yet not the shinniest )

besides sacrificing time for footdrill practice and shoe polishing, i need to wear the headscarf for the sake of uniformity. good experience though, i can now teach tong kwun =P

Our most commendable and proud moment : Second place for best formation. Didnt expect that at all coz we did a lot of mistakes compared to kawad asas

and also best comander of the year! Wani was the only female comander among all the squads. Thumbs up for her courage and calmness in giving commands

 silver medal

the back of our hostel where we had our durian feast + KFC at night

the guy who looked like Alex Fong

Last day of KAKOM : final match of sepak takraw, bringing down Kedah team and contributed to the only gold medal

boys in cloud nine

And so, the 4 days long competiton ended with Labuan Matriculation emerging as the champion, again grasping the top prize every year. Next year the host for KAKOM would be Selangor Matriculation college with their stunning yut entertaining and creative welcoming performance-altering Justin Bieber's song, Baby into their very own version.

Will certainly miss KMJ for its accommodation and also the freezing cold water!

Zap Zap Zap

Crap first day of exam. In within a blink of eyes, two months has passed and i am sitting in the classroom cracking my head trying to write a single word for my essay introduction. What the heck! Jah~ the examination atmosphere is almost tantamount to SPM examination! what the heck man..we are not allowed to bring pensel case and most ridiculously the calculator cover. At least in SPM we are permitted to bring that particular thin rectangular blue calculator blanket. Now i know the use of speaker mounted on the wall every classroom. Technically, they convey all the instructions, rules and regulations of examination through that small box.

English today was speechless. I always feel unprepared. probably is because i dont read a lot that very less nerve cell is being produced. Haih..i really want to achieve my 2010 resolution which is to read 12 novels. Is that possible? In my heart, it says yes and is really pumped with adrenaline to accomplish it. But yea, high discipline is required. I must ACCOMPLISH IT NO MATTER WHAT!!!! ROAR~~~~

Switching to another issue which is chemistry test, i really needto thank God for all the power He gave. Walau weh~~ the bulb on my head lights up everytime only when the exam officer is about to snatch the answer sheets away and ditch me pleading like a baby.Fuh, but at least I got to scribble my answer as fast as the speed of light. Jah!

Two papers are gone, two more yet to go. BIO~~ crap. ><

Cause You Have a Bad Day

Almost everyday is a bad day. The day before yesterday, yesterday, today and who knows, tomorrow will be a bad day. What the heck! It is to one extend that me writing here is totally speechless in describing it. Heap of homeworks, slapped with embarrassment day by day especially and PARTICULARLY during every chemistry tutorial. I would have to endure all sorts of obstacles. there's one moment i felt like crying but sudden rush of optimism from my two fists sized brain told me to hold back and be strong. And thanks to Choy, with his empowering phrase " SO WHATTTTTT !!!!!!!!! " has driven an unexpected optimism and also ebullience in holding on and never give in.

I've begun to change slowly. Less pessimistic. I can do it. Yea.

Hmm..freaking examinations, quizes wtf la. But in another way of thinking, my study methods have changed drastically thanks to the bullet train speed of teaching, tonnes of homeworks and also energy eroding footdrill. I start to study before and after teacher teach, wake up 4am, yet feeling that it is not early enough and apparently utterly immune to the sea of darkness. urgh..what happen to me? Maybe it is a good thing. phew.. optimism!

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First assessment is no longer creeping but touting with high velocity. Right after the dreading pre-assessment, one decade celbration, here comes the war for a few percent of our 4flats. Jahhh...

I will never let myself down anymore. I will make sure that though or if i cant obtain a great results, al least i am already occupied with self-belief. You, chemistry, i'll beat you down. What so hard to tumble you down? Just wait and see.

The new me has arrived, pumped with ebullience all the time. and the " SO WHATTTTTTTT " attitude!

Smile no matter what. Create Positive Aura For The Sake Of Your Love's One.

Everyone is having the own problem and i am not excluded. But i aam so much ok than them. I strongly believe that. and shuddup devils! cause i know i can do it!